Hate Last Minute Work...Regreted

The 71th Day in Sydney...


I am both mentally and physcially drained right now, extremely drain in fact. Fuck~ ( ‵o′)凸

I only slept for 25 minutes within 2 days. Last time,  I felt that my battery was long lasting. But I think I almost died today.

I need to hand in human biology report and psychology essay on the same day, their marks will affect my final results. Using the time left over right now, to do rendering and that close up the entire submission. I was on the verge to give up. I was struggling inside. And I simply know this is not what I want. I hate last minute work and this is really last last last minute.

I seriously have learnt my lesson. I know this habit of mine irritating myself at times, which is stop trying to confirm the date/time of  meet-up more than 24 hours before the event itself or get the work done within 24 hours of deadline. Every time the voice in my head would be relentless in reminding me to to get everything done as soon as possible in my mind so that I wouldn't have it hanging over my head like a heavy cloud, but, that does not come true all the time.

I swear, this is the first time I felt to stressed up and disappointed in myself. What kind of rubbish work am I producing. Even if the lecturers are going to scold me, I'm fine, because I know, I'm seriously too far away from being good. I cannot accept the kind of lousy work I handed in. Sigh ╭(╯3╰)╮
There's nothing that I can do to salvage this situation.

 I should stop dwelling on it and work on them.

 I miss my bed so much. Good night world~

It's time to wake up...

The 70th Day in Sydney...

Just realized that i wasted so much times for doing nothing at here, keep thinking nonsense.
I read one article few days ago, and suddenly i found that i was lost, i'm not who i am now...
Where is Liz? Where I am?

It’s so easy to sit back and stay comfortable in your comfort zone. Really easy.
In fact, it’s so easy, it’s the easy option most people take all of their lives. So you’re not alone there.


But how could things be different if you were to get really honest with yourself and acknowledge where you are being dishonest?


Even myself, i couldn't hardly find what i really want? Let go or keep struggling with the unrealistic hope , what should i do?


Where are you turning a blind eye to opportunities for huge growth and freedom? Where are you selling yourself in the name of false security? Where are you putting up with things that are truly unbearable to you because there is a perceived payoff – something you are grasping onto and giving value to because your mind tells you it’s important?


Is he the one or he just the passerby of my life ? I never been in dilemma in Love Games since the day i knew what is it. It is just a game which will game over one day and someone will come and someone will leave, this is the rule. But what's wrong with me now ?


And when you stop running in circles, making up constant stories and justifying your own pain, that’s when things can settle and you might just have a chance of hearing the quiet whispers deep inside.
The whispers from something that is so much greater than you are and ultimately gives your existence meaning.
When you are not listening to this voice, your life is on a low flame, dishing up luke-warm experiences created by a mind run riot that thinks it’s in the driver’s seat.

By: Fiona Stolze

Liz, stay strong !

望著同一片藍天~

昨天，謝謝一個很長氣有超愛鬥嘴的啊公陪我聊天...


或許，是我遇到愛情，就變笨的關係
或許，是我不願意去看清楚現實
或許，我還在期盼著我的憧憬會實現的一天


但是，他卻像剖洋蔥一樣，
一層一層的剖開我的心，
把我不願意面對的東西，全都說了出來~


今天上心理學課的時候，教授的講課竟然開導了我~
他說，如果你連自己都不可以說出你自己心裡的話，
            做不到你心裡想要做的事情，那你就背叛了自己~
            你是你自己的老闆，你要做什麽事情，
            你都有自由，最重要的是，你要懂你自己！

對，如果我連自己的事情都不能夠做決定的話，
我真的是很俗辣~
我不是違背爸爸媽媽的意思，
只是我想堅持我自己的想法，
就算是短暫擁有，只要開心過，我不後悔~
我從來不是個拖泥帶水的人，合則來不合則分的人~


我不要求他的學歷多高，但至少要肯上進，
學歷不夠，就要努力靠後天~
只是比別人走的路繞了一大圈，
因為先人走過了這條路是錯的，他把它分享在書裡~
可是你看不懂，你就走了同樣的路，悟了同樣的道理，
但是卻比其他人懂得遲了一點，
人家常說：聽君一席話勝讀十年書（我不是老派>,<)
不是沒有道理，因為你不會重犯他經曆的錯誤，
所以更快，用了比他更短的時間達到了你要去的地方~
不用到處去摸索，到處去碰壁，
在十字路口時，也不用去猶豫那一條去路~


我曾經也浪費時間，無所事事
但是我都從交往過的男朋友身上學到東西~
這就是人家常講的，互相學習，一起成長~
我慶倖的是，我遇到了他們，把我開竅~
他們的經驗和閱歷是我永遠都最不上的，
唯有多讀書，多觀察社會，多與各階層人溝通
才會豐富人生~
我才能夠站在他們的角度，看著同一片的天空~
分享同一片的景色~


我也許，
應該給他一次機會，一起成長~
“望著同一片藍天”~