很爱过,很痛过

        谢谢你从来没有觉得我不够好 

谢谢你守护我的每一分每一秒 

         谢谢当天塌下来你也会帮我顶着 

你的固执谁才会懂 

终于让时间回过头来想我们很傻 

连暴雨都有淋过才能逼得人成长 

没有地久没有天长

没有最美的话 

只有遗忘 

能让眼泪流过 

很爱过很痛过我们为了彼此而活过 

你爱我拥抱着我却让我看不见星空

我们都没有错没有谁比较寂寞 

我的世界早已经不是以前 

也许以後再也没人比你更爱我 

也许以後我也不可能再那样活 

每当想起你的时候 

快乐都比较多 

也许快乐是时间的幽默 

很爱过很痛过我们为了彼此而活过 

你爱我拥抱着我却让我看不见星空 

我们都没有错没有谁比较寂寞 

我的世界早已经不是以前 

多少天多少年爱一个人很难爱自己更难 

清晨心里所有美梦都不见 

很爱过很痛过我们为了彼此而活过 

你爱我拥抱着我却让我看不见星空 

我们都没有错没有谁比较寂寞 

我的世界早已经不是以前

你不在

电影里，电视剧里，分手的人总是会歇斯底里大哭，

原来在结束一段感情的时候，

原以为自己会很潇洒，舍得放手

原来我也是个普通女生，很爱过，很痛过

回忆会像一面面苍黄的慢动作影片在播放，

在一起的笑过，哭过，闹过，幸福过，互相依偎的体温，

重播着.....

他是第一个，我每天醒来有他在身边的人，

他是第一个，我每天为他洗衣晒衣，

他是第一个，我见或我家人的人，

他是我第一个给我一个家的感觉~

可是，我真的很累了

我无助伤心不开心，想要有人在身边的时候，他不在

他每次做东西都没有计划，每次决定好的，都一定做不到，一拖再拖

他说的 “迟一点” ，我都很期待

期待久了，却依然没有行动，我却傻傻的一直相信

对不起，我答应过等，但是我真的不行了

他说他已经长大了，不再是以前那个男孩

但是我却恢复了真正的自己 不再是陪在他身边玩的那个女生

或许他不肯承认，但是放弃他，
是因为他的懦弱

他总是有很多的借口和解释来说服自己，

要我相信他做的是对的

但是其实他却选择逃避和不敢面对前方的挑战

如果他觉得我放弃是因为我的心不定，还不懂得爱，

那当初他决定留下是最好的理由

如果一切回到过去，一起出发去实践我们的爱，

结局或许会不一样............如果......如果

爱，本来就只有两只手牵手的距离，

但是再加上一个海洋的距离，就会变得可有可无~ 

就算你多么需要它，已经习惯没有它

一个月，两个月，哭了多久，我自己也不知道

晚上发梦看到的也越来越模糊，离我越来越远

心像被抽离的痛........

當世界只剩下這床頭燈　

你那邊是早晨已經出門

我側身感到你在轉身

無數陌生人　正在等下一個綠燈

一再錯身彼此脆弱的時分

不過渴望一個吻的餘溫

我關了燈　黑暗把我併吞 wo

你不在　當我最需要愛　你卻不在 wo

無盡等待像獨白的難捱 wo

你不在　高興還是悲哀　你都不在

我受了傷再偷偷好起來　但你不在　不在

時間再按下許多次快門

沉默裏聽見轉動的秒針

一個人吃飯這個凌晨　孤單一人份

你低聲說你有別人

我的話筒只有自己的體溫

怎樣認真也不一定成真

你說的對　我不得不承認 wo

你不在　當我最需要愛　你卻不在 wo

無盡等待像獨白的難捱 wo

你不在　高興還是悲哀　你都不在 wo

我受了傷再偷偷好起來　但你不在 wo

那些搖擺　我都明白　都明白

但你不在　愛已不在　不在

你不在　當我最需要愛　你卻不在 wo

一個人分飾兩角的戀愛 wo

你不在　高興還是悲哀　你都不在 wo

像空氣般不存在的存在

再沒有痕跡的愛　你不在

當我需要你的愛　你不在

他说过的承诺，或许只是随口说说，

但是我一直等待那天的到来，不会发生的一天
是时候结束了， 该是画上句号，离席了

第二十一个单身的生日，快乐~ Liz

Hate Last Minute Work...Regreted

The 71th Day in Sydney...


I am both mentally and physcially drained right now, extremely drain in fact. Fuck~ ( ‵o′)凸

I only slept for 25 minutes within 2 days. Last time,  I felt that my battery was long lasting. But I think I almost died today.

I need to hand in human biology report and psychology essay on the same day, their marks will affect my final results. Using the time left over right now, to do rendering and that close up the entire submission. I was on the verge to give up. I was struggling inside. And I simply know this is not what I want. I hate last minute work and this is really last last last minute.

I seriously have learnt my lesson. I know this habit of mine irritating myself at times, which is stop trying to confirm the date/time of  meet-up more than 24 hours before the event itself or get the work done within 24 hours of deadline. Every time the voice in my head would be relentless in reminding me to to get everything done as soon as possible in my mind so that I wouldn't have it hanging over my head like a heavy cloud, but, that does not come true all the time.

I swear, this is the first time I felt to stressed up and disappointed in myself. What kind of rubbish work am I producing. Even if the lecturers are going to scold me, I'm fine, because I know, I'm seriously too far away from being good. I cannot accept the kind of lousy work I handed in. Sigh ╭(╯3╰)╮
There's nothing that I can do to salvage this situation.

 I should stop dwelling on it and work on them.

 I miss my bed so much. Good night world~

It's time to wake up...

The 70th Day in Sydney...

Just realized that i wasted so much times for doing nothing at here, keep thinking nonsense.
I read one article few days ago, and suddenly i found that i was lost, i'm not who i am now...
Where is Liz? Where I am?

It’s so easy to sit back and stay comfortable in your comfort zone. Really easy.
In fact, it’s so easy, it’s the easy option most people take all of their lives. So you’re not alone there.


But how could things be different if you were to get really honest with yourself and acknowledge where you are being dishonest?


Even myself, i couldn't hardly find what i really want? Let go or keep struggling with the unrealistic hope , what should i do?


Where are you turning a blind eye to opportunities for huge growth and freedom? Where are you selling yourself in the name of false security? Where are you putting up with things that are truly unbearable to you because there is a perceived payoff – something you are grasping onto and giving value to because your mind tells you it’s important?


Is he the one or he just the passerby of my life ? I never been in dilemma in Love Games since the day i knew what is it. It is just a game which will game over one day and someone will come and someone will leave, this is the rule. But what's wrong with me now ?


And when you stop running in circles, making up constant stories and justifying your own pain, that’s when things can settle and you might just have a chance of hearing the quiet whispers deep inside.
The whispers from something that is so much greater than you are and ultimately gives your existence meaning.
When you are not listening to this voice, your life is on a low flame, dishing up luke-warm experiences created by a mind run riot that thinks it’s in the driver’s seat.

By: Fiona Stolze

Liz, stay strong !